Currently The Witcher By Atari see related

And This Years Drug Is...

Yes! It's that time again! Xmas is right around the corner and it's time for me to reveal wut anime/game based drug I want this year to keep me happy thru out next year! And the winner is.........

.........FISSTECH!!!
The drug is made by mixing ingredients providing one measure each of Vermilion and Quebrith, and three measures of Hydragenum. It's top quality so you'll probably have to use something like White Gull or Wyvern Blood Spirit as a base. The elves refer to this drug as "White Death" but, meh... wut do elves kno anyways?

And with that, I leave you this treat:
Merry Xmas

Merry Xmas (cuz I probably wont publish another blog this year)

~CH^0S

Currently Borderlands By 2K Games see related

End of Suffering

(I'm really getting pissed with myspace having me write my blogs 2 or 3 fukken times cuz the HTML editor decides it wants to delete every fukken thing I write down when I'm putting the final touches on it)

The future gets bleaker every year it seems
The people lose hope, the kids lose dreams
Adults struggle to make ends meet
Just to put shoes on their child's feet

Times were bad, war torn era and land
Few survivors strong enough to take a stand
The strong hunted and searched
For food and materials to keep their homes perched

Religious faith is no where to be found
When children are kidnapped as food for the hounds
Buzzards swarm, everything looks dead
Plucking eyeballs from even the livings heads

And I happened upon a family then
All near death, ready for Heaven
They had little and fought for more
But it never seemed enough with beds on the floor

Look in another home and what could you find?
Naught but the same thing through out all of mankind
Scrap of iron for a knife, corpses in stacks
Lack of electricity, bodies burn like wax

Who will live tonight? Who will die?
It was anyone's guess on the roll of Death's dice
And as they departed, I could hear horrible wails
Of how they cursed all life for giving them such hell

And maybe those screams of sorrow became too much for Heaven
For it all stopped around 3:07
The witching hour had just begun
But it sealed the fate of everyone

never have I seen deities cry before
But it is so fierce, tide rose from the shore
And maybe this was their last sad will
For by 3:08, the world was still

This was not how mortal life was meant to end
Therefore the cycle begins again
Maybe this times they'll reach their true purpose and goal
And not be sucked into war and hate like being drawn to a black hole

(Another tale from the Minstrels book. Comment and criticize, I'll probably revise it later. Still have my yearly blog of wut anime/game related drugs I want for x-mas coming. I'll post that later when I'm bored enough to do so. Z ya)

~CH^0S

Currently The Witcher Enhanced By Atari see related

[Born Again]

I don't remember the home
I don't remember the love
I don't remember the sound of my mother's voice
My mother's voice...

I remember only the screams of terrified people
They've seen fire and pain, and nothing more
And I was born again, so cold
So inhuman
So quiet
so calm, so calm, so calm (so calm)

Now people meeting me, avert their eyes
It is a mixture of fear and disdain...

Do you think I'm different?
Sure I am
But you can see only my skin
And you don't know my feelings at all

It's time to tell the truth!

Meet me now! Look at my face!
Do you think you can walk in my shoes?
Stay, don't move!
Don't follow my way!
You have your life, let me have my own!
Spirit, spirit, only spirit knows me!
No one knows me, no one can stop me!
Try to feel the same, try to understand,
Nobody feels the same! Nobody understands!
Do you see the blood? Haven't you seen it before?
Have you seen the crime? I can tell you more!
Say, if you want,
Say, if you can,
No longer you'll be the same
Like I'm not the same!

Witcher, witcher, witcher, watch out!
Witcher, witcher, witcher, watch out!
Witcher, witcher, witcher, watch out!
Witcher, witcher, witcher, watch out!

~Born Again~
by Rootwater

~CH^0S

Currently Good Times, Bad Times ...Ten Years of Godsmack By Godsmack Voodoo see related

Voodoo

"I'm not the one who's so far away
When I feel the snake bite enter my veins.
Never did I wanna be here again,
And I don't remember why I came."

An amazing song isn't it? At first I just loved it's mystical tune and never really paid attention to the words. Now the lyrics are like the tune of my life lately. I remember, it was a year ago I moved out here. But why did I? I wanted to get my own place and make it on my own. Why did I choose to move so far away? On the flip side, it feels like everyone else is so far away, not me. Like I'm just right here. Then again...I am just right here with me...to myself, I'm not the one who's so far away...

"Candles raise my desire,
Why I'm so far away.
No more meaning to my life,
No more reason to stay."

I try to find small rays of light to edge me on, to keep me going.  Games, possibilities, anything... But it feels like any strong meaning to my life is gone. Like I have no purpose lately. Not to return or stay where I am. Like there's no where to really belong or be. It feels as if I'm waiting to find that purpose to live again.

"Freezing, feeling,
Breathe in, breathe in...
I'm coming back again..."

I'll admit, I've become cold being out here. I feel like a hermit minus any spirit/soul cleansing or wutever. I still joke and mess around with people at work or my family like I always have but my outlook on alotta things is far more pessimistic than a year ago.

"Hazing clouds rain on my head,
Empty thoughts fill my ears.
Find my shade by the moonlight,
Why my thoughts aren't so clear."

More and more often, my thoughts become nothing. Or were nothing to begin with. Reality and rationalization fades my emotionally unstable imagination into the void such thoughts loomed from. Whether it takes me opening my eyes wider or shaking the images from my head, I find myself thinking more and more untrue things and having to bring myself back to reality.

"Demons dreaming,
Breathe in, breathe in...
I'm coming back again..."

(I'll finish this later...)

My Life Is Complete

And I just became more of a Star Wars fan: (watch in HQ if you can)



Darth Vader dancing like MC Hammer to "Can't Touch This"...Yes...My life is now complete...I can die without regrets XD
~Master Chaøs